Walking Down The Memory Lane..

Young. Ano nga ba ang age limit kapag sinabing bata ka pa? Because I'm the eldest among my siblings, kapag tinignan ko sila, sasabihin kong bata pa sila. Syempre ganun din ang impresyon ng mga magulang ko sa'kin. Nakakagulong isipin. But I guess I wanna be young forever. Well, everybody does. Ang simple kasi nang buhay kapag bata ka..

Ang iniisip mo, konti lang. Kumain, matulog, pumasok sa eskwela. I still remember when I was in Kindergarten, I'm always practicing on how to sing and lead the "Lupang Hinirang" in front of the class. Kahit sa bahay, pina-practice ko kung paano mag-beat. Gusto ko nagli-lead dati eh. My mom once told me that I also like to read during those times. Kahit ano daw makita ko, binabasa ko. Kahit mga signboard sa school, sayings sa simbahan, mga kung anu-anong letter sa bahay at pati komiks na usung-uso dati. Lagi ko rin sinisigurado na may laman ang lunchbox ko. I remember my favorite was Magnolia Chocolait (not sure if my Chuckie na that time) and Hansel Mocha Sandwich. Haha.

Masaya rin during elementary days. Mas child-like. Naglalaro nang Chinese garter, sumasali sa intrams, napapagalitan ng teacher, magca-camping sa girl's scout at ga-graduate with honor. Six years na iikot 'yung mundo mo sa mga ganitong bagay. Hindi pa masyadong pressured. Came High School. Medyo pressured. Preparatory for College. Pero mas exciting. These are the times where you explore more. New friends, boyfriend-girlfriend, JS Prom, more extracurricular activities, including puppy love and first love. :)

And of course, College days (Well, I understand some of us was not able to go to college due to some circumstances). Anyway, for me it's not as exciting as I am in high school but these are the times where you experienced more and more pressure. Group meetings, projects, presentations and thesis. However, among all of those things, this also the time where you broaden your horizon, you meet new friends, you join an organization, you meet half of the world. A time where you gained experience to face what they call as real world.

Parang kahapon lang. 'Yun'yung laging sinasabi kapag binabalikan mo ang mga bagay-bagay na nangyari sa nakaraan. I started walking down the memory lane about few hours ago. I was on my way out of the village together with my sister when I saw my friend. He's standing by the car parked in front of their house. He greeted me and I smiled. After seeing my sister riding the bus, I went back home and saw my friend standing on the same place, this time he's laughing while looking somewhere. I tried to catch his sight and asked, "bakit ka tumatawa?" He answered, "tignan mo sila, matatawa ka." I looked where his eyes is headed to and found kids playing at the swing and slide. I smiled and felt a little prick at my heart.

I looked back at my friend's face and tried to search for something. I'm not sure but I think behind that smile, there's sadness and regrets. You can say it's paranoia but I think he wants to do the things that the kids are doing right now. Playing, laughing, teasing. As well as back to where there's no complications. Where everything is simple. I myself, longed for same thing. Once again, to feel the happiness it brings when my mom got a "pasalubong" for me, when my crush said that he likes me, when I tried my best to go home early to watch my favorite show and of course when there are still those times when I'm not thinking of the same thing that I have in mind right now.. when we are all young..